i think i've started to realize that i've been feeling sorry for myself way too much. as much as i think i'm oppressed in this country, there are people who have it a hell of a lot worse than me. i mean, yes, it's very fucked up that we have a society where i have to work 25 hours a week just to make rent and i still don't have enough money for food, health insurance or a car. oh yeah, i was down today pretty hard because the reality of losing my car just hit. the mobility and freedom that it once gave me (it was in fact my ticket to liberation when i was 17) is gone all of the sudden. although i'm much freer now that i've been dispossessed by the car, i can't help feeling oppressed by the fact that i can't just drive wherever the hell i want. of course, walking is a hell of a lot better for individual health and the environment, but walking is also limited to how far one can go before getting exhausted. i was walking on the grass today. they tell you to walk on the sidewalk, but the grass is made for walking on. it's so much more comfortable and natural than pavement. well, i guess the grass around here isn't all that natural. Ok, so I guess I lost track there. Anyway... what was I saying. Nothing I suppose.